Gender Disappointment?
I have decided to talk about something that I doubt many people will understand. I would never have understood it before, but then we lost Madelyn and everything changed. When people look at me with my children, they see a mother of boys. I could not love my boys any more than I do, they are my world and they have pulled me through the toughest of times. I’m proud to be their Mum and I love the rough and tumble and the cuddles that come with it, but I am not only a mother of boys. I had a daughter, not for very long but I had her. I grew her, I gave birth to her and I held her as life left her tiny body. She was here and I am still her Mum too. When I was pregnant with Madelyn I did not mind whether she was going to be a boy or a girl. Having had a son already, part of me thought it would be nice to buy girly things this time around but that had never been something I’d been particularly bothered about. It certainly wasn’t something that I felt I had missed out